The past few months have been a whirlwind- new home, new job, new friends, new city, new life. I have been thoroughly enjoying myself and have to say that I have barely taken a chance to sit back and enjoy the new scenery...of my life. It has been such a change from the past 10 years that I haven't wanted to pause- afraid that it might go away.
Yesterday, I felt the strong need for focus. I feel like it is finally time for me to sit down and breathe- and that it's okay to do it. I have been so busy doing things that involve everyone else- not in a negative way- just busy going out, being with friends, dating, etc. I have neglected spending time with me. There are so many things that need my attention and these things will provide growth. So, I'm not trying to change my new world- I'm just at a place where I feel comfortable making it balance.
My job needs more of my attention. Things are going very well, but they could be going better. So, I am going to work more. I need to start saving money. So, I am going to spend less. I want to focus on my passions- writing, music, and volunteering. So, I am going to give more of my time to these things. I am excited about this. I am going to stop dating people that I don't enjoy or see any sort of future with. For some reason, I have been giving people more chances than I am happy to give. The time that I will save with people I don't enjoy will be time that can be focused on my growth.
So, this post is not about great creativity- it is about real stuff. It is about what I finally feel- comfort with happiness. Before, it scared me and I was afraid it would leave. My life has been so filled with crap that I have been nervous that normalcy would not last. I'm not sure that it won't, but my life is finally so much more stable than it has ever been. I am grateful and I really believe that I have the power to keep it as close to this as possible....but I have to focus. So, here it goes. Wish me luck.
Yesterday, I felt the strong need for focus. I feel like it is finally time for me to sit down and breathe- and that it's okay to do it. I have been so busy doing things that involve everyone else- not in a negative way- just busy going out, being with friends, dating, etc. I have neglected spending time with me. There are so many things that need my attention and these things will provide growth. So, I'm not trying to change my new world- I'm just at a place where I feel comfortable making it balance.
My job needs more of my attention. Things are going very well, but they could be going better. So, I am going to work more. I need to start saving money. So, I am going to spend less. I want to focus on my passions- writing, music, and volunteering. So, I am going to give more of my time to these things. I am excited about this. I am going to stop dating people that I don't enjoy or see any sort of future with. For some reason, I have been giving people more chances than I am happy to give. The time that I will save with people I don't enjoy will be time that can be focused on my growth.
So, this post is not about great creativity- it is about real stuff. It is about what I finally feel- comfort with happiness. Before, it scared me and I was afraid it would leave. My life has been so filled with crap that I have been nervous that normalcy would not last. I'm not sure that it won't, but my life is finally so much more stable than it has ever been. I am grateful and I really believe that I have the power to keep it as close to this as possible....but I have to focus. So, here it goes. Wish me luck.
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