day 3

I am so tired today. I went to the Redskins preseason game last night, with Dave, my cousin Nicci's husband. He was in town on business and since it was a Bills game, I knew he'd be thrilled to go. I understand why some people don't go out much during Ramadan- it's hard to explain, but it's almost like the very things that are beginning to settle in your heart are sucked out by distractions. Oh, how easily distracted we are.

I worked today and then broke my fast with a dear brother. He is always an encouragement to me. Now, I am home and cannot wait for my day tomorrow- a day with no demands. A day for me. I am craving it.

I made the mistake of not getting up early today to eat and spend time reading and in prayer. It is really necessary to make the day. The fast is going well....lol, grant it, I am only 3 days in. However, I am confident that at the end of this, I will be a different person...a change will have taken place.

As you can see, I have no creativity tonight- no tricky statements or catchy phrases. :) I'm beat. I want to close my eyes and not move off of my couch except into my bed. The following are things that have been in my head today or have jumped out in my readings~

• Do not harbor any doubts.
• Do not be anxious for anything, but in everything, through prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known to the lord. (This filled my mind as I was walking Chloe today- just as I was thinking how I was tired of feeling anxious...thankful for this reminder.)
• Not my will...but THY will be done. (Been fighting this one all day- not wanting to say it with complete sincerity.)
• You were given victory, despite your weakness. (Beautiful...so beautifully true. I am thankful for my blessings. I have made it through- a conqueror, a victor, a winner...not because of me, but in spite of me. So grateful.)

Goodnight.